an honest conversation.
I’ve been meaning to write something about this for a while now, but I didn’t know how or where to start. What I do know is that the only way is through, so by taking consistent action and showing up, I’ll figure it out along the way, but in the meantime, here’s where I’m at (in case you were wondering or even if you weren't).
When the idea first came, I wanted it to be a place where women shared their stories and their hearts. My intention was for it to be an online publication and magazine. However, after doing all the behind-the-scenes work (which included hours of back and forth in emails, scheduling IG posts, scheduling FB group posts, writing and scheduling blog content, and so on), I finally accepted that it was too much for one person.
After the initial launch of the first (and only issue so far), I burnt out.
And instead of feeling excited about working on the second one, I felt major resistance, doubt, and fear. In all honesty, it felt like a chore I didn't want to do. A thing on my to do list that kept getting pushed to the bottom. Something I didn't want to think about. At all.
So after confiding in a friend about how I was feeling, she made the suggestion of putting things on hold and coming back to things when I felt ready to again - after all, this was meant to be a passion project and not a chore. So that’s what I did.
It was a good two to three months before I started posting again, showing up online again. At first, I didn’t want to show my face. I felt like - here was this grand idea I came up with and it was so good and it felt so needed in the world, but I wasn’t sure I was good enough to carry it out and make it happen. “Who was I to start a community / movement?” I can barely handle two minutes of small talk.
But after launching the IG campaign series ft. women who answered the question, “What do you love most about yourself?” and interviewing women again for the Wholehearted Wednesdays interview series, I knew I was onto something and that I had to continue, even if I didn’t know what I was doing half of the time.
What I do know is that these projects fuel me and my soul.
There are so many amazing women doing beautiful things in the world -
women I would've never met if it weren't for this.
I realized I didn’t have to reach for the moon and the stars. Maybe all I had to do was show up and be present. And listen.
Maybe sharing my unedited story with you is enough.
And let's be honest...
There are days when I don’t want to share my story, talk about my struggles, or show my imperfections.
There are days when I wished my heart picked something a little less scarier and a little more surface-level.
There are days when I wonder if I’m the right person for the job and if I have what it takes to make it work.
Often, I ask myself if my blog posts are a little too surface level and / or if I’m writing too much and just adding more noise in the world instead of something useful and encouraging.
Some days, I’m showing up only for myself (I think that's sometimes you're not "supposed to say", but here's to keeping it real), because showing up for others feels like too much responsibility and weight. Day by day, I’m learning, growing, and improving, but I also wonder if I’m doing it “fast enough”.
Being honest and staying true to your roots can be scary, but I also believe that the world needs more of it.
The world needs more wholehearted woman.
More soulful conversations. More vulnerability with heart and soul. More love, healing, joy, and trust. More wholeheartedness.
Oh my goodness. There are so, so many things I want to create and put out into the world. Projects I want to see come to life. People I want to meet. Places I want to go.
So many wonderful and glorious possibilities.
I'm talking books, workshops, retreats, in-person events, and the list goes on.
A brand ambassador program. Bring a few people on and have a small team. Maybe even create a short mini-film.
In the meantime, I’m going to work on showing up as much as I can (without burning out again) for you and for me.
To continue the conversation on Instagram and Facebook.
To post (hopefully) valuable and helpful blog content twice a week.
To send love letters straight to your inbox.
To add more goodies to the resource library.
To inspire women to share their stories and their hearts.
To encourage women to keep showing up every day.
To help women be the best version of themselves.
To empower women wherever they are on their journey.
Thanks for continuing to be here with me on this journey, dear friend.
Here's to you and me figuring things out as we go.
Here's to start new things before we're ready.
Here's to showing up even when we're scared.
Here's to being brave.
I appreciate you.
If we haven't met and you're saying to yourself, "Who's Molly?
I don't even know you or what you're talking about. I just came here for the freebies."
Well, I'm so glad you're here! Here's a brief intro:
Hi, I'm Molly! An INFP, multi-passionate creative, and always hydrated. You can either find me in the new books section at the library, using up the wifi at the coffee shop, or ordering pizza online to skip the long lines.
Fun fact: I have almost 20 Yelp check-ins at my local pizza joint, and hot buffalo sauce is prob the only reason why I eat so much pizza. #noshame
You can reach me at email@example.com if you have any questions or just to say hi! I would love to learn a bit about you too. Where can I find you on most days? Or share a fun fact about yourself in the comments below!
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